Since this is a new journal, I feel as though I should start off with some introductions; however, because writing here is currently serving some kind of personal cathartic purpose, I’m going to be selfish for the time being and only write when it benefits me. In the future, though, watch for more general commentary.
I’ve seen many transitional blogs that start the day someone goes on T (that’s testosterone, for the uninitiated). I’ve also seen just as many that follow the more traditional “wrong body” narrative. While both seem to be helpful perspectives for learning about the process of transition for an FTM, neither expresses the full spectrum of trans experience. Hormone therapy (HRT) will not be the start of my transition process, even if I do decided to go through with HRT. I began making decisions about my gender identity and my gender presentation years ago. Going on T — or not — doesn’t make me any more of a man (or any more of anything else, for that matter). When the medical transition is the only part of that process that is documented, it feels like something valuable is lost. I’m hoping to include more here, even though I am starting this a few years belatedly.
Also, I don’t feel like I was born in the wrong body. I feel more male than female. I’d probably prefer choose neither, if I felt that was a viable option for everyday living, employment, etc.
More soon on all of this.